If theres one thing thats been strongly proven to me during this pregnancy, its that God speaks to us.
Not that I didn’t believe that before, but I have never witnessed such interactions with God in past. Maybe its because I didn’t ask him for it. Or maybe its because I wasn’t being observant of all his little whispers. Whatever the reason, I am aware that God speaks to us now.
I can remember early on going to Panera for breakfast before work. I had ordered oat meal in hopes that my body would keep it down. As I sat there waiting for my oatmeal cup, tears ran down my face. I wasn’t consciously thinking about the recent unraveling of a relationship, but it must’ve been on my heart. After getting my oatmeal, I wiped my eyes with napkins and headed to work.
It sucks to lose someone, even if the loss isn’t physical.
At that time, I was listening to Lysa Terkeurst’s book Uninvited through Audible. One of the concepts Lysa keeps reiterating in the book is knowing that you are fully loved by God. She challenges, “What would it look like, if you started everyday knowing that you are fully loved by God?” She says if you understand this one concept, your perspective on everything else, especially human relationships, will be different. It is ok to be rejected by others if you come from a place of knowing you are fully loved by God.
So I prayed for God to remind me I am fully loved by Him. I knew that in my mind, but I wanted to know it in my heart. Every time I got sad about this relationship, I would pray this prayer.
Let me tell you, when you ask God to show you your fully loved, he doesn’t disappoint.
Throughout the past 7.5 months I have received love in various forms from nature and people, both strangers and friends. I’ve had not 1 or 2, but 4 showers thrown in loving support of baby Rose. Two of the showers I knew about, two were complete surprises. Our Catan nursery currently looks like a baby store hit by a tornado. I am in shock and amazement by the undeserved generosity I have received.
The boy and I took a ride around the neighborhood yesterday and guess whats in the air? The sweet smell of the magnolias. They only bloom once a year and it was a reminder to me to enjoy this sweet time as we near meeting our baby.
Y’all, God speaks to us.
I know you’ve already seen this baby Rose picture, but I’m sharing it again, because yesterday I saw it in a different light.
When my bestie and I took this picture in Austin, I thought of the “I love you so much” coming from me to baby Rose. But yesterday when I looked at this picture again, I saw the “I love you so much” coming from God to me and baby Rose.
With only 7 weeks to go, my mind is overflowing with all the “things that need to get done” and various anxieties. But remembering that God hears us, that God speaks to us, and that He loves us so much, silences it all.
I can’t wait to share shower pictures and baby Rose updates in a future post, but for today I’m going to leave you with a few lyrics from a favorite song:
“If you got pain, He’s a pain taker.
If you feel lost, He’s a way maker.
If you need freedom, saving, He’s a prision-shaking savior.
If you got chains, he’s a chain breaker”
Dina says
Beautiful ❤
thegingerlifeblog@gmail.com says
Thanks Dina!
Jana probst says
Brittany, I didn’t know about your blog until just now. I so needed to read these words just now! From you and God to me!?
thegingerlifeblog@gmail.com says
Yes – its my fun creative outlet! So glad you found it helpful 🙂